Saturday, January 3, 2009

Putri Farah Sheilah

In the past times (June 2007)

I'm seeing you like all i got is only you. And i thought you're seeing me like that too.. That's why i was being so caring,,and texting you at most of the time just to make you feel that you're not alone, giving you my attention the most that i could give. I remembered how you're telling me about your sis and what your brother did to you...and i remembered the look upon your face when i asked you to make a police report, i thought you're seeing me as your hero...
Fa...i remembered how dizzy you were, climbing up the stairs looking for your dad after you took that pills..and that's when youre holding on to me asking me to accompany you...i know i should've been home that night, studying and making my parents proud...but i rather being stupid spending time with you at that night...remember the nasi lemak?? that i've rushed to get for you just to get everything done easily for you...
I still remember how we walk together like always...we went to the nearest cybercafe, searching for your piano key tunes...i remember that you've said that you couldnt eat without me...i remember it when i make you believe that i was in so deep care about you that i even skipped my school just to be there for you...
And its come to my mind when i'm asking a break up from you and you cried hard, i thought i could believe your tears...i thought you loved me... Don't you remember...i am the one who guide you to wear your tudung...i am the one who willing to teach you how to pray...i am the one who ready to guide... And you dont know how happy i was reading your letter, yeah...we used to write and exchange letters at that time... One of it says; "terima kasih Elham, sebab ubah Fa..."
And so the time went by and unfortunate for us that all we got was a short period of time.. I cant believe that you're actually blaming me for what have happened... after what i did, i never thought this is how you would repay me...

But now.... (Broke up on October 2007)

Stories that i heard is different...i thought you'rehappy with him...i thought you're so proud delivering your pics to everyone and my sis, how tight you hugged him in a room... So that's where my hope's gone...i'm letting you go slowly...

The latest thing i heard from you is your family found you...in a taxi with him...and so the JAIS caught you both for some case...and now you're in rehab... After what i did and how bad you repaid me... I'm just letting everything go and God just being fair...what goes around comes around... You never believed that you'll be a lot more fine with me before... You're in rehab now, its a better place for you... So just go, walk away from me, you're not welcomed anymore...

Did you think i'm crumpled??
Did you think i lay down and die??
Oh nooooo

P/s: Gimme back my Chicken Soup For The Soul Book, gimme back my Simpson the Movies...

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